Earth Angels Recalibration

EARTH ANGELS RECALIBRATION (Updated on 11/12 to include the ENLIGHTENMENT entry.)

The following is a demonstration of the Emotional Recalibration Technique. The citizens of Nigeria appear to be in the throes of psyop coup. My intention is only to help them open up to each other and create the trusting relationships required to usher in their revolution. First, I will make 10 statements of how I feel regarding the basest emotions of “Shame”. These feelings and thoughts are not “true” — they reflect how I feel in response to my own ineffectiveness. Over the next 17 days, I will take each of the 10 thoughts and move them up through guilt, apathy/hopelessness, sadness, fear, desire/greed, anger, pride, courage, trust/faith, willingness/determination, acceptance/forgiveness, clarity/reason, love, joy, peace, enlightenment.

I recognize that I am doing this of my own free will and invite any reader to make their own 10 statements in private. The reader’s process is none of my business unless they wish to engage in conversation. Just reading these entries may be helpful, but for a connection to this material to flourish I recommend doing the exercises and applying them to your own life.

October 28, 2020:

SHAME:

I am ashamed that, given the current circumstances, this is the best I can do to help Chaz.
I am ashamed of the knowledge that Accenture may have played a small role in denying universal food allocation on this planet. (Again, this statement is not “true”. It is an illusion I have cultivated because there is currently no two-way communication.)
I am ashamed that I continue to contribute to a group which seems to have given up on each other.
I am ashamed of myself for not contributing more to this group.
I am ashamed of breaking a covenant I made with myself. (I’m not even supposed to be posting on Facebook.) I am ashamed of blaming social media to excuse my own lack of understanding.
I am ashamed of nagging Trish in these posts. I am ashamed that I started this conversation because the more I continue alone the more it seems to validate the belief that no one cares.
I am ashamed of my lack of intelligence: I am intelligent enough to know how to end poverty and balance socioeconomic inequality, but I do not have the intelligence to communicate that clearly.
I am ashamed of taking so much of your time and attention in even writing all of this.
I am ashamed that I am denying my family my time by choosing to help people who want to pretend I do not exist.
I am ashamed of my ignorance: I am ashamed for not empathizing enough for the reasons why you choose not to communicate.

Refection (10/27): I wrote this entry addressing “shame” last week. These statements reveal my darkest feelings regarding the Earth Angels group. Luckily, Chaz and some of the other members started to engage. The feedback garnered so far is that there is so much hopelessness and despair that the other members are emotionally stuck. These next five or six days will be most daunting as I will walk through my feelings of shame, guilt, apathy/hopelessness, sadness, and fear. I cannot change anyone’s feelings except my own. All I can do is join them with these feelings and reach for the next emotion one day at a time.

Shame is really the most “dead” feeling. People die by suicide by staying here. But there is value in acknowledging what feels shameful. Conscious shame leads to “guilt”, which I will address tomorrow. Unconscious shame leads to the destruction impulse. To understand the motivations of those who seek to control us by force, I have found value in exploring my own shame knowing that I have the skills and tools to rise out of it. It is easier to develop empathy for “the enemy” when one can train themselves to get comfortable with these emotions. An adversary wins when they can pull you into these lower emotions. You win when you can recognize HOW the adversary uses control dramas to pull you down to his emotional level.

You cannot control your adversary. Once this is understood then you can identify the tactics the adversary uses to control you. The highest outcome possible is when the adversary can rise in emotions with you, changing them from the inside out, from an enemy to a confidant. This can only be done by calibrating first at the emotion they are projecting. You are only responsible for identifying the emotion and calibrating up one step at a time. I understand this will not be understood upon a first reading. It requires a 17-day commitment.

(I have produced extensive material on the Emotional Recalibration Technique (also known as the Emotional Hierarchy). More information may be studied from the COLLABORATION IN ACTION workshop and a comprehensive study is available in the audio presentation THE MOST MEANINGFUL CONVERSATION.)

October 29, 202

GUILT:

I feel guilty that I cannot do more at this time to help Chaz understand how to change the laws of the economy.
I feel guilty because I have harbored much anger at Accenture and other organizations for the lack of communication, especially after being generous with providing key information on how to end poverty.
I feel guilty that I feel this way. I feel guilty that I want to give up on the Earth Angels.
I feel guilty that my contributions to the group are unhelpful.
I feel guilty because I know how Facebook triggers people and I am still playing a small role in helping them do that.
I feel guilty that I felt this way: “No one cares.” Yet, 2 or 3 people did briefly respond. I feel guilty for doubting their care.
I feel guilty for even mentioning this – that I know how to end poverty. It always invites skepticism and alienation, and I am just tired of it.
I feel guilty for my persistence and not knowing if this conversation is hurting more than helping. Some of my conversations with Chaz indicate that it might be hurting more than helping.
Again, I feel guilty in persisting because it does come at a small price to my family.
I feel guilty because I really do not have any profound reason to care about the Earth Angels group except for my developing friendship with Chaz. I feel guilty that I might be alienating Trish by my efforts as well.

(Reflection 10/28) For transparency’s sake, I will confess that I wrote all the entries from “Guilt” to “Enlightenment” yesterday. So, I do know where this path is going for me. These daily reflections and updates will be written in real time. My intention is to reflect on any activity that may transpire because of these entries. However, my expectation is that there will be silence as I do not underestimate corporate and governmental effectiveness to inhibit meaningful planning and actionable intelligence.

Shame is like struggling to lift a 1-pound weight with atrophied muscles. Guilt is like lifting a 1.5-pound weight with the muscles recovering negligible strength. It is still difficult to lift as Shame and Guilt are the densest of emotions, but Guilt has some degree of consciousness available which makes the Shame seem a little lighter. With respect to class warfare, it is safe to say (at least in my mind) that to understand those who are emotionally inaccessible is to explore the calibration between Shame and Guilt.

All of the numbered statements are related. For example, I took yesterday’s Shame statement, “I am ashamed that, given the current circumstances, this is the best I can do to help Chaz,” and calibrated it up one emotion and identified where I feel Guilt: “I feel guilty because I have harbored much anger at Accenture and other organizations for the lack of communication.”

Upon reflecting on my “Guilt” statements I do once again feel a sense of apathy or hopelessness (which will be explored in tomorrow’s entry.) If I am honest with myself, because I am not communicating currently with anyone, I feel a sense of Courage (by persisting even though I have reason to believe Facebook is censoring my efforts) which is transmuting into Trust (I trust myself and this process. I trust that it does not matter if anyone is reading this – the deeper story is that I am building a case against corporate obstruction of justice and conspiracy to impede socioeconomic equality.)

Now there is sufficient evidence to support that Facebook is obstructing peace in Nigeria. I was not able to tag Chaz and Trish today on the first entry. This is understandable and I suspect this is deliberate. The cover story is always that technology has random “bugs” which inhibit communication. However, I am confident that the longer I am censored, the more powerful the impact will be once key individuals have a chance to sit down and separate fact from judgements from emotions.

October 30, 2020

APATHY/HOPELESSNES

In general, I feel hopeless that anyone is going to understand the connection between emotion and economic mechanics. I feel hopeless because Chaz feels hopeless.
I feel hopeless in the sense that none of my efforts to connect to organizations have ever made a lick of difference.
I feel hopeless because there is no balance of give and take in the Earth Angels. I feel like I am giving 95% of the time and only 5% is given back.
I feel hopeless because my knowledge means nothing – I am only receiving emotional inspiration by my own efforts.
I feel hopeless in that Facebook has screwed me and I even paid them to do it.
I feel hopeless because there is no continuity in the Earth Angels.
I feel hopeless because my intelligence, understanding and insight are precisely what makes me feel alone.
I feel hopeless because I cannot control if truth hurts anyone. I feel hopeless because I cannot control another’s response or the ramification for expressing that truth.
I feel hopeless because my son cries while I type this and feel like I have to temporarily ignore him.
I feel hopeless because Trish has ignored me throughout this entire process.

(Reflection 10/29) Apathy is kind of like a numbing effect. It allows you to say, “I don’t care” and absolve yourself from responsibility. It allows for compartmentalization because, to retrieve information from trauma, a grief process is necessary. Remorse and empathy can only be achieved through the grieving process which is very painful for someone who has covered up shame and guilt with the numbing effects of apathy. Tomorrow I will explore sadness/grief. If one allows themselves to grieve then the next emotion up is fear. Fear is completely overwhelming to someone who is calibrating (or perhaps conditioned to calibrate at…?) Apathy.

I am no different. When I calibrate at this level, I my tendency is to blame others. As one moves up this scale of emotion one begins to take personal responsibility for their feelings.

October 31, 2020

GRIEF/SADNESS

I grieve because Chaz is struggling. I greatly empathize with him.
I feel sad because people I looked up and spent years emanating – like Tony Robbins and Marianne Williamson – have completely ignored me.
I feel sad because I had put a lot of time and effort in the Earth Angels group and I feel unseen.
I feel sad because I feel alone.
I feel sad because I see no evidence whatsoever that Facebook is really trying to do anything to benefit humanity emotionally.
I feel sad because I must rely solely on myself for continuity.
I feel sad because my own passion for making things happen sometimes strangles me. My brain strangles my emotions.
I feel sad because I have been exposed to the massive suffering of others.
I feel sad because for the first time when I asked if my son needs a hug, he said “no”.
I feel sad because I care deeply about Trish and her family and feel like an outsider.

(Reflection 10/30) Yes, this a real grieving process. I made a commitment to this group and joined with the expectation that we would all hold each other accountable for taking steps forward in our personal journeys. Leaving this group is very real for me. I cannot help people who do not want to be helped. Likewise, I can offer no value to anyone who refuses to share their own value.

I am very comfortable with grief. This training helps me to recognize if my grieving process is progressive or regressive. All of these emotions have a progressive and regressive effect based on their position on the scale: Grief is between Fear and Apathy. Progressive Grief leads to Fear. Regressive Grief reverts back to Apathy. For example, when I start to feel fear over what Trish, Chaz or the others think of this futile effort, then I know my grieving process is progressive. If I slip into the feelings of “They are all ignoring me, I don’t give a f* what they think,” then the grieving process is regressive (and if this feeling were to be left unchecked it would regress back into guilt and shame because then I would be judging myself for having such thoughts about what I inherently know are good people.) So, yes, the grieving process is very real, and I am finding peace in letting these feelings go. I want to help liberate people who are being oppressed. But all I can do is free myself from my own inner-oppressor and invite others to do the same. If it were my choice, this would be a group discussion, not a self-exploration. But I am grieving over the process of letting go of that desire. Yes, I am writing about my feelings, but this really is not about me. So, I grieve over my own powerlessness.

November 2, 2020

FEAR

I fear at times Chaz might be overcome with hopelessness.
I fear that people in high positions of power are sabotaging my every effort. I fear that, because I have been so vocal and giving on their social media pages, I am well known but they choose to pretend I do not exist.
I fear that only the members of Earth Angels predisposed to fear and despair are seeing this. I fear that the members with a deep commitment to growth are missing these posts because of technological manipulation.
I fear being misunderstood because others are feeling isolated and stuck in their brains.
I fear my intentions are no match for the power the technocrats wield over the populace’s minds.
I fear not having continuity. I fear quitting more than I do with following something through to completion.
I fear complexity. I sometimes fear my own tendency to take something simple and make it complex.
I fear the same people and organizations who make people suffer are the same ones blocking my communication with you. I fear that it really IS all connected.
I fear that I am being negligent to my son by choosing to focus on this.
I fear Trish thinks less of me for continuing this path.

(Reflection 10/31) Fear is complicated. As I read over my 10 entries related to Fear, I am confused by some of the statements. It seems to me that when calibrating at “Fear” not only does what one express seem confusing, but there also seems to be “noise” in receiving a message. In other words, if you are in fear then it is difficult to listen and receive a message. It is understandable why one would choose to stay in “Grief” or “Apathy/Hopelessness” rather than move up to “Fear”. Fear is intense and confusing! In my own life I can see where I might have made unconscious attempts to bypass Fear and jump into Desire. However, that Desire regressed and dumped me back into Fear, Grief, and Apathy anyway.

Upon rereading these entries, I really do feel the fear. I think that is why I choose to move all the way up the scale in a day – to avoid really feeling this fear. In a sense, it reveals my cowardice. I was in a hurry to take each feeling and translate it into Desire. So today I am returning and really letting myself feel all of this. Spending time with my son, giving him the care he is asking for, helps me confront this fear with love.

November 2, 2020

DESIRE

I would like to see Chaz to make a film about Nigeria’s liberation if this resonates with him. I want him to have most of the control over the narrative of such a film and the focus on those with auditory challenges might be a good entry point to exploring this larger theme.
I want to work with my heroes, even if I continue to misunderstand them.
I want to be a part of this group.
I want communication and to have emotionally intelligent conversation.
I want understand people with worldly power. I have no desire to “conquer” them.
I want to follow this 17-day exercise through to completion.
I want to talk about what really matters.
I want everything to be connected. I want to understand.
I want my son to know I love him more than anything in this world. (I just told him that. He said, “I love you too, Daddy”.)
I want Trish to know how grateful I am that she initiated this group.

(Reflection: 11/1) If I were to borrow from a musical comparison, I would consider the transition from Fear to Desire the first “key change” in the emotional calibration. Where Fear created confusion and noise, Desire creates clarity.

I still associate somewhat of a negative interpretation of Desire as greed is desire taken to excess. The word “de-sire” translates to “of the father” and it brings up my internal conflict with the ruling patriarchy and the observations of greed and excess. This exercise helps me to empathize with the fine line our patriarchs might be riding between Anger (progressive Desire) and Fear (regressive Desire). So, this might be a trap our men especially are facing and requires more empathy than antagonism.

After reading my 10 “Desire” entries, I have no need to expand upon them in this reflection. I spoke from my heart and that is enough.

ANGER

I get frustrated when Chaz is frustrated with my efforts. I get frustrated when I judge myself for going at a slower pace.
I am angry because I feel like my heroes just threw me away when I was giving key information away selflessly.
I am frustrated at the media and political elite for putting this wedge of communication between me and the people I want to connect with.
I do get frustrated at arrogant people who have no perception, let alone respect, for emotional intelligence and collaboration.
I am angry that our politicians seem absolutely incapable of vulnerability, or to express courage via vulnerability.
I am angry that I have to feel angry to get through this 17-day process.
I an angry that the only opportunities that are available are the ones I have to create. I am angry that there seems to be no one out there who can meet me halfway and give as much as I give.
I am angry that our cultural and political gatekeepers are so stupid to continue propagating polarity consciousness. (Yes, in my frustration I used the word “stupid”.)
I am frustrated and regress to my own childish anger when my son is angry.
I am frustrated that Trish continues to ignore these efforts. (But suspect she is doing it deliberately to honor this process and her own process.)

(Reflection 11/2) I have a healthy relationship with Anger. After spending the first 22 years of my life learning to control it, I can now see how progressive Anger leads to Pride and regress Anger reverts back to expressing Desire.

I feel anger in every part of my body, and it activates me. When I stepped away from Facebook a month ago, I realized how angry I was that Covid made me stop my physical training for close to 8 months. After channeling that anger back into my physical workouts, exercising 6 days a week, I can honestly say I am almost the healthiest I have ever been in my life. It is easy to calibrate up and feel “Pride” at this accomplishment. But this took a compounding effect of shame, guilt, hopelessness, sadness, fear and desire to finally make that desire for action effortless.

After reviewing my Anger statements, I keep noticing the pattern of looking outside myself. In these lower calibrating emotions, there is this tendency to speculate and blame. Above “Pride” comes “Courage” – which I interpret as being another one of those “key changes” when the attention starts to go within. On the diagram included in this blog there is the “Alpha Point” where consciousness is fragmented into Ego and there is overwhelming “Shame” at it’s seemingly insignificance. (“The Fall” from Heaven.) So, the Ego creates a sense of grandiosity in order to imitate the grandeur of All That Is, or Ultimate Consciousness. Somewhere between “Courage” and “Trust”, that grandiosity of insignificance becomes the grandeur of knowing Ultimate Consciousness. “Anger” is the point where you fight yourself under the illusion of fighting others to earn “Pride”. More on that tomorrow…

November 3, 2020

PRIDE

I am proud of Chaz for his resilience during this time of upheaval.
I am proud that I did my best to help others by conventional means and reaching out to established businesses and people.
I am proud that I am still communicating every day.
I am proud that I am sensitive to emotional intelligence and that I practice good communication habits every day.
I am proud of my vulnerability.
I am proud that I’ve allowed myself to feel shame, guilt, hopelessness, sadness, fear, desire and anger to get to this point of feeling pride.
I am proud that I have always gotten up when being knocked down or humiliated. I never laid down and not gotten back up.
I am proud that I am beginning to understand how social engineering through psychological manipulation works.
I am proud of my son for being able to communicate how he feels.
I am proud that I am finally sharing this process with Trish.

(Reflection 11/3) Pride is where the sense of self is reinforced. The false narratives created by Shame up through Anger begin to subside and you can start to clearly see your strengths when calibrating at “Pride”. Regressive Pride is when you feel dishonored or sense injustice and makes you angry! Progressive Pride allows for authentic action in the face of perceived adversity (“Courage”).

These reflection blurbs might start getting shorter. As I read my 10 “Pride” statements, the communication seems clearer to me. The statements speak for themselves and there is an easier transference of feeling. In the lower calibrating emotions, there seems to be a need for explaining myself, which leads to complication and possible regression. With Pride there does seem to be an adherence to a gestalt prayer that I have always resonated with: “I am not put on this earth to live up to your expectations. You are not here to live up to mine. If we get together, then it is a beautiful thing. If not, it cannot be helped.”

November 4, 2020

COURAGE

Courage is being completely honest with Chaz and the Earth Angels group. I feel that I am accomplishing that by sharing this exercise.
Courage is saying to Accenture, the Tony Robbins Foundation and the Xprize Foundation that you underestimated, wasted and threw away a valuable resource.
Courage is looking deep inside oneself. Confronting another out of anger or misunderstanding is easy; confronting one’s own deepest emotions is the definition of true courage.
Courage is choosing a deep relationship with one person over a million followers by cultivating superficial relationships.
True courage and resiliency are expressed through vulnerability.
Courage is revisiting those lower emotions (shame, guilt, hopelessness, sadness, fear, anger, etc.), listening to them, and making them friends.
Courage is not the ability to succeed, but the ability to love making unlimited failed attempts.
Courage is speaking openly about topics like social engineering, psychological warfare and systemic racism.
Courage is stepping away from these writings to take care of my son and wife.
Courage is holding up your end of a friendship, even when the friend in question chooses to hide.

(Refection 11/4) Courage is another one of those “key changes”. We had our Election Day yesterday. For many Americans, this is a day where Courage is prevalent. Many will step up and progress into Trust, others will most certainly regress into Pride, Anger and lower. It pretty much comes down to what you invest your emotions in.

Not much more to reflect. The 10 Courage statements pretty much sums it up.

November 5, 2020

TRUST (NEUTRALITY)

I trust that my effort to share this with the Earth Angels group is not made in vain. I trust that the energy spent there is not wasted and will create an effect somewhere else if not in the EA Group.
I trust there is more to this situation than meets the eye. I trust there are real people in organizations who might not be vindictive toward me, but simply confused and experiencing their own growth process.
I trust my feelings. More importantly, I trust how to be curious about my feelings.
I trust Chaz and Trish. I am learning to trust people who are emotionally inaccessible.
I trust someone when they trust me enough to speak from their heart.
I trust myself and my ability to overcome fear.
I trust I will complete my 22-day commitment regardless of who chooses to show up.
I trust that I have mastered the 6 principles of collaboration: committed speaking, generous listening, energy awareness, mutuality, coachability, and curiosity.
I trust my son and wife are aware on some level the character and life I am building. I trust this process is making me a better father and husband.
I trust Trish is not engaging for a noble reason.

(Reflection 11/5) Again, not much more to add other than the 10 statements.

As details over our US election unfold, I am present to my feelings for helping others understand how social engineering works. The courage and trust required to have that conversation will escalate the speed of this paradigm shift.

I want to make note that Judith expressed feeling “Faith” at the beginning of this process. I associate “Trust” with having faith.

November 6, 2020

WILLINGNESS/DETERMINATION

I am willing to focus on the Earth Angel group for 7 more days – regardless of the outcome.
I am willing to stay open and listen. I am willing to consider that the political and social elites are not so much evil as they are emotionally lost.
I am willing to give my feelings more credit during this time of personal isolation.
I am willing to always be open to Chaz and Trish. Even if I walk away from this group due to non-compliance, I will always be open to helping in any way possible.
I am willing to speak from my heart.
I am willing to post this piece even if no one reads it.
I am willing to finish writing today and I will constantly reconsider daily for the next 7 days if this effort is still worth it to me.
I am willing to observe the 6 principles of collaboration and invite you to have a conversation about them.
I am determined to find ways for this process to deepen my connection to my son and wife.
I am willing to back off of this exercise if asked.

(Reflection 11/6) In response to statement # 7: Yes, this process is very much worth it to me!

Yesterday’s calibration of Trust/Neutrality is like potential energy. Willingness/Determination is very much a kinetic energy. I often mind myself just asking what I am willing to do at this moment and then just do it. So, in this moment I choose statement #5 and am speaking from my heart.

The big discovery for me today was reviewing statement # 2. I think because of all of the corruption and hostile behavior we are exposed to on the media, it becomes very easy to project the idea of “evilness” on people who are emotionally unavailable. The CEO’s, celebrities, political leaders – the personalities taking up our screen time and attention – are not emotionally available to us. The very pressure of having to perform in front of a camera or for critical journalists is stressful and counterproductive to authenticity. It is easy for me to see how feelings based on judgement (anger, shame, sadness, hopelessness, fear) can self-perpetuate themselves by just having the spotlight on you. I have this deep-rooted belief that no one can become famous, or notorious for that matter, without being compromised in some way. I continue to question this belief and hope for more authenticity. I would like to invite the people under such pressure to have a conversation and to trust that I will not betray any confidences.

All I can do is be open. All I can do is open the door. I am willing to continue doing that for whoever is looking for deeper awareness, relationships, and understanding.

Which brings us to “Acceptance” and “Forgiveness” as a path toward “Clarity”…

November 7, 2020

ACCEPTANCE/FORGIVENESS

(Reflection 11/7) Forgiveness is the last “key change” leading to the embodiment of Clarity and Love. True forgiveness is cathartic, and many people will spend a lifetime developing the skills to forgive themselves. As I go deeper into this process there really ceases to be judgement of others; I am simply delving into the deepest recesses of my own ignorance – and inviting others to do the same. Bruce Lee said, “I no longer seek ‘knowledge’. I seek to uncover the cause of my own ignorance.” (Paraphrased.) To uproot our own ignorance is to be vigilant in practicing forgiveness. This is what leads to “Clarity” or “Reason”.

The element of Love is already starting to creep in at this point. As I read my 10 Forgiveness/Acceptance statements it is becoming clear that there really is no work “out there” to do. It is all “in here”. I have no control over what other people think or how they receive these writings. I believe that is where people get emotionally lost – when they try to control outcomes and then there is the subconscious backlash of the attempt to “play God” with their lives. Regressive Acceptance/Forgiveness is Determination/Willingness. It is easy to get caught in this Rat Race cycle of determination in trying to be the best. If Forgiveness is unattainable then Clarity (which is progressive Acceptance/Forgiveness) will remain elusive.

My life is expanding in all directions and my focus on the Earth Angels group represents a little dark corner of my perception. There is no communication except for my friendship with Chaz. However, another member articulated how foolish we Americans appear to Nigerians – the current election and our collective response provided fodder for this articulation. I continue to reflect on my experiences with Trish and the role Accenture might have played in misunderstanding my attempt to bring socioeconomic balance to disenfranchised communities and nations. Therefore, I simply accept that this remains a dark corner of my own ignorance – and that is okay. I forgive myself for emotionally clearing this.

November 8, 2020

REASON/CLARITY

I am clear that I have done more than enough to help my sisters and brothers in the Earth Angels Group. The reason I believe this is because one person cannot play a team sport.
I am clear that it is not apparent yet the value or knowledge I bring to the table. The reason I assign to this belief is that most people – especially businessmen and women – are functioning at a 5-10-year-old emotional level.
I am clear that the door for creating change is always open. The reason I offer this is because I am not attached to an outcome of success or failure. If I die without fully communicating the value brought for ending conflict, poverty and hunger, then that is someone else’s karma, not mine. I am clear that I have surpassed expectations I have set for myself in this life.
I am clear that I joined this group for a purpose. The reason I believe this is because I have now given my all. My life is about service, and I have fulfilled this endeavor.
I am clear that darkness exists in everyone. Likewise, Light exists in everyone. This work allows one to examine, by way of observing their emotions, if they are choosing Lightness (emotional awareness) or Darkness (emotional ignorance.)
I am clear that I have been very generous. I am clear that I have no reason to ever doubt my intentions to help others and humanity.
I am clear that this effort has been life changing for me. That is enough.
I am clear that I have gotten some profound answers at this level of “Clarity” on the emotional scale.
I am clear that I am ready for whatever comes next in my life. I am clear that fatherhood is my priority.
I am clear that today’s entry is complete. I am clear that I am transcending unconsciousness into consciousness, incompetence into competence.

(Reflection 11/8) At this level of calibration, we start to get answers. I allow myself to feel all 17 of these feelings on a daily basis. My hallucination is that powerful people are masters at this level. However, the next step which is “Love”, seems elusive to them. That is the only explanation I can find for such polarization in our world. It is easier to feel “Pride” (which is way lower on the scale which I equate to the illusion of “Love”) than it is to surrender one’s ego to feeling genuine appreciation for all life. “Reason/Clarity” is the furthest that a masculine, “yang-type” energy can take you. “Love” is a surrendering process; it is of letting go. As we progress together up the emotion scale, I will offer that “Joy” is simply a surrendering to the feelings of “Love”; “Peace” is a surrender to “Joy”; and, finally, “Enlightenment” is the complete surrender of ego within “Peace”. This is the “yin” energy, the sacred feminine. The transition between actively seeking “Reason” and surrendering to “Love” is the blending of opposites – the male/female energies, the yin/yang, the active/passive, and what we perceive as “Light” and “Dark”.

As I come down the final stretch with these entries, I am becoming clear that my passion lies with deepening relationships. My collaboration with Chaz is deepening as we both have a passion for filmmaking. I have been inspired to create a video presentation which puts responsibility for social justice directly into the viewer’s hands – if they choose to accept it. Being Nigerian, Chaz has expressed a desire for making projects focused on “The Nigerian Dream” and my intention is to provide a platform for him on my project to express this to all people desiring social change.

I am open to two members of the Earth Angels Rise Group stepping forward who might wish to support Chaz and myself with these endeavors. If you have gone through the process of reading this blog, then I truly want to speak with you. More importantly, I want to listen about your journey. Collaboration is the future and I feel honored that you have taken the time to listen to me. I wish to return your generous contribution of your time.

November 9, 2020

LOVE (APPRECIATION, GRATITUDE)

I appreciate the opportunity to participate in a community. I am grateful for holding up my end and providing space for others to participate.
I appreciate the creation opportunities for growth.
I love my life exactly the way it is.
I am grateful for those who understand the value of service to others.
I appreciate the energy awareness of emotions. I am grateful that human motivation may be understood by talking about emotions.
I love generosity of spirit over ego.
I appreciate you giving me the space to create a life-defining moment.
I love it when things work out like this and answers are forthcoming.
I love my son and wife.
The life process always leads back to love.

(Reflection 11/9) Words sort of become meaningless here. The progression through “Love”, “Joy”, “Peace” and “Enlightenment” is beyond semantics. To me, it is all “Love” and the words used to describe this energetic progression is simply a deeper surrendering of ego.

I use the words “appreciation” and “gratitude” here because they represent a commitment to letting Love in, as opposed to enforcing one’s will onto their experience. Love is very simple, though not always easy. I often reference the progression from unconscious incompetence to conscious incompetence to conscious competence to unconscious competence. Love is the first step from conscious competence (applying the mind to understand the ego) into unconscious competence (the act of relinquishing the ego in order to completely “feel”.)

November 10, 2020

JOY

Joy is relationship.
Joy is growing beyond isolating feelings.
Joy is engaging in life.
Joy is selflessness.
Joy is pure energy consciously relinquishing fear.
Joy is a conscious choice of love over fear.
Joy is knowing suffering is temporal.
Joy is an answer before the question is asked.
Joy is family.
Joy is walking the path.

November 11, 2020

PEACE

Peace is achieving harmony within relationship to self and another.
Peace is a natural flow devoid of manipulation.
Peace is beyond purpose.
Peace is unconscious competence.
Peace is energy approaching the void.
Peace is the unconscious choice of love.
Peace is knowing everything is temporal.
Peace is the eternal state beyond polarity.
Peace is perceiving nothing but family.
Peace is where all paths lead back to when all emotions are expressed completely.

(Reflection 1/11) In reflecting on “Peace”, I am present in awareness that it can only exist in the individual and can be shared through intimate relationship. A “Nation” will never be at peace because it is a reflection of the collective and cumulative emotions based in competitive insecurity. A community can be at Peace, but a nation reflects the struggle – the “Pride” of a cultural elite and the “Shame”, “Anger”, “Grief”, etc. of those who work to support the nation.

One individual at Peace, sharing it, is stronger than 1,000 people at war with themselves.

Peace is here. And nowhere else.

November 12, 2020

ENLIGHTENMENT (Final Entry)

Enlightenment is an unspoken harmony.
Enlightenment requires no manipulation.
Enlightenment is an effortless knowing.
Enlightenment relinquishes the desire for unconscious competence.
Enlightenment is beyond these words.
Enlightenment is love turned up a few notches through submission.
Enlightenment is eternity and has nothing to do with time.
Enlightenment is.
Enlightenment can only be expressed through a vehicle like family.
Enlightenment is our natural state.

(Final Reflection 11/11) Again I will emphasize that Enlightenment, Peace and Joy are just extensions of Love with the ego being surrendered even more with each calibration. My subjective experience is informing me that “Peace” is beyond duality – an awareness of all 17 emotions but kind of a “break” from them. “Enlightenment” is the integration of all the 17 emotions. The duality of mind and body, with the emotions being a bridge, is reconciled here. Therefore, one can embrace feelings like “Shame” without being lost at that alpha point. We were never truly “lost” to begin with, but this unconscious awareness (competence) of this “Map” becomes attainable.

Rogue Counselor

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